A520.1.6.RB_John Marshall

As I mentioned in my earlier post, I have a lot of work to do.  I think that I will be learning more about myself this next nine weeks than I have to date.  I find that I put myself in a bracket that is created through what I think people expect me to be, especially since having children.  I am confident yet lost, not sure how that happens but it does and has.  In regards to the Five Core Aspects of Self-Awareness, I feel that my struggles lie in Emotional Intelligence and Core Self-Evaluation.  I have been lying to myself for such a long time about what I know and/or understand about myself, and will really have to dig deep into self-evaluation to begin to grow again.  I feel that my values, cognitive style, and attitude toward change  are on the right track and in-line with who I think I really am. I am a good-hearten person who genuinely wants the best for his family and those around him.  This covers many aspects of the values segment in that I make decisions that I know my children would approve of, and that could never harm them. I seem to fall in the gap for cognitive style, I like to think of myself as having a Knowing cognitive style yet have a lot of the attributes of the other two. As I further evaluate myself I will be able to narrow these down to one dimension while avoiding the possible liabilities associated with them.  The attitudes towards change section confused me a bit,  especially in regards to the internal and external locus of control.  I rate in both aspects, according to the questionnaire.  I do take a lot of weight for my achievements and for my mistakes yet I do not always accept that I am solely responsible for these things, many outside influences affect not only my decisions but also the outcomes.